There have been times when I have had a need in my classroom for more staff to provide a better student-teacher ratio for my unique student dynamic. This is never something that will just be given to me because I have asked for it. A need must first be established. This includes drafting an outline showing where my students spend their time during the course of the school day and which staff members are responsible for them at each point of the schedule. Next, this information will be reviewed by administrative staff who will forward it to other administration staff and so on. Then someone will come visit my classroom and assess the need for themselves, making suggestions on how to better use the current staff before changes will be considered. At some point more questions will be asked and if there is funding available, or maybe if I have enough student parents involved in the situation, a requisition will be processed for the additional staff and the position will be posted on the job board for the district. It’s a long process and at times seems to be never-ending; definitely a test of endurance.
I have spent many days and nights crying over the fact that I was not equipped to teach a class just the available staff. I have felt as if I were asked to paint a picture, but have been restricted from using paint or a brush. I have said many times that I forgot how painful growth can be, but I also find it painful to be stagnant and lacking in opportunities to become a better teacher, a better parent, a better employee, a better Christian, and even just a better person.
I am reminded tonight that just like the school district has a process, God also has one. He does not just give us the things that we ask for without requiring something of us. Something like a relationship with Him, faith in Him, hope in Him, love for His people. God expects us to be faithful and follow His direction; move through the process so to speak. It is during this process that we learn to trust in Him. It is also during the process that we realize He is always with us, even if it does not seem like things are going our way. He has a plan. He is in control.
It’s time to start enjoying the process and asking God what He would have us learn through it. Today I am thankful that He teaches us through His process and in teaching us makes us better equipped for the future.
- Thankful Heart: Day 23 – Students (ourcrowdedheart.wordpress.com)