Time with the boys was shorter than anticipated. Their mom came to get them yesterday afternoon claiming to be taking them for ice cream, but never returned. My heart is broken as well as those of my immediate family who have poured everything they have into those sweet babies for the past two years and beyond. I knew it was coming, and yet it is still one of the hardest things I have ever had to do.
I have to remind myself that I did what God wanted me to do, for as long as he allowed me to. We gave them a foundation and that was all I asked. I wanted them to start school with a firm grasp on a love for reading and education. I wanted them to have the tools necessary to be successful in their future. I wanted them to know that no matter where they are or what’s going on God love them and so does Nauna. I beleive that we accomplished all of those things and more. It was time, but it’s not easy.
They are just as much my grandchildren as Rylann and Eythan and I know that God has a plan for them and for their mother. I pray that she will listen to that still small voice and not to the craziness of this world. I pray that she continues to love and support those boys the way that God created them to be loved. I pray that she feels the love of God surround her in every waking moment as she adjust to this new step in her life. I pray that she knows I love her and understand how hard it was for her to leave them in my care for the past two years, and how hard it was to take them back aswell. I pray that she knows I am still here when she needs me and will do anything I can to support and love her as well.
God is good, and I know that He is taking me deeper than my feet could ever wander, just as I asked Him to do.
- Thankful Heart: Day 13- Our Boys and Their Momma (ourcrowdedheart.wordpress.com)
- Letting My Heart Go (ourcrowdedheart.wordpress.com)