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5 Minutes from the Heart: Breathe

49284-she-took-a-deep-breath-and-let-it-goThings happen in life over which we have no control. It’s the way we respond to those things that determines where we will go next. The song Just Breathe, by Jonny Diaz says, “Breathe, just breathe. Come and rest at my feet and be, just be. Chaos calls but all you really need is to just breathe.” It reminds us who is in control and that the only response we should have to whatever is happening in in our lives is to just be with Him. There are times that we just need to take a deep breath, breathe in who God is and breathe out all of the negativity in our lives. Just breathe. My middle daughter has a tattoo on her wrist with the single word “breathe” to remind her of just this simple act that we can easily take for granted. Breathing is a part of who we are, it is something that we do without thinking, but if we stop and concentrate on it, let it soothe us, it can be as easy as taking a long deep breath to calm our selves and remove ourselves from the chaos that surrounds us. He is waiting. Just breathe.

Linking with Kate Motaung’s Five Minute Friday, a time to write for just 5 minutes without editing. Today’s prompt is breathe.

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Enough For My Trusting Heart

enough-550x250For 2016 the word “trust” was my one word for the year. I studied about trust, read about it, and learned a lot about activating my ability to trust. God has been so faithful in teaching me to trust others, myself, and most importantly Him. It has been a journey of learning to listen to God, allowing Him to be in control of my steps and actions, and making my own wants take a back seat to what was best for me and my family. This included a very clear directive that it was time for our boys to go back to their mother again. It was a difficult thing for me to do on my own without leaning on Him and knowing that He was making the path straight before me. The night in April that I took them was a big stepping stone in my journey to trust. It was a turning point for me. Since then I have left many other decisions in His hands and felt at peace in situations where I would not have previously. I have set aside some, but not all, of my controlling ways, and am learning through each hold I give up that He is more capable of making decisions than I ever was. This process has taught me more about the importance of consistently reading my Bible and spending daily time in prayer as well. I now know that I must have a relationship with Him that gives me confidence in His lead in order to relinquish my own control to Him. I have started reading books by authors such as Shauna Niequist, Lysa Terkeurst, and Ann Voskamp who tell their own stories of allowing God to direct their steps and lead their lives from very low places to the most amazing everyday experiences in the shadow of the almighty. These women and others have been quite an inspiration to me in many ways and I highly recommend their books listed below. As 2016 comes to a close, I am beginning to see through trusting in Him that I am enough. I am learning that the experiences of my childhood,  any failings of my parents, and any failings of myself as a parent do not define who I am. Not only is He enough, but I am enough. In 2017, I plan to focus on the word “enough” and seek His face for more confidence in who I am and in the knowledge that I am who He called me to be. Ann Voskamp wrote, “The world has enough women who live a masked insecurity. It needs more women who live a brave vulnerability.” I pray that you too will find a word for this year to focus your lives and give you more reason to “trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding” (Psalm 3:5) as I find a place where He is enough for my trusting heart to believe in myself and His will for my life.

I listened to and highly recommend the following books on http://www.Audible.com:

Present Over Perfect by Shauna Niequist

Uninvited by Lysa Terkeurst

The Broken Way by Ann Voskamp

One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp

All are also available in print, but believe it or not I am not a fan of reading for pleasure. I have made much better use of these texts in audible format while driving or walking.

A Mothers Heart: Chailey

IMG_7481I wanted to take a minute to ask you to pray for my middle daughter who is having ankle surgery today; her 6th surgery since 1992, when she was just four months old, and her third surgery in the past 18 months. Long story short: she had Osteomyelitis (an acute bone infection) in her right ankle, had her talus (main ankle bone) removed at that time, then miraculously walked at 10 months of age as if the talus was still there. For 9 years there were no issues, then one day tendonitis set in, and after trying injections and other remedies through several different orthopedic surgeons over the course of a year, it was decided that they would go inside and see what was happening. So in 2002, they looked around, cleaned out a lot scar tissue, and thought they had corrected the problem. Unfortunately, there was still a localized pain the in the sub-talor joint. So, again we went to several orthopedic surgeons, most of whom did not know what to do with something like this; even some fellowship-trained ankle surgeons were baffled.

So, for surgery number three we waited until 2004, two years after the previous surgery. Finally, a sports-related ankle specialist was willing to perform another procedure. He went in to do a scope and upon opening up the ankle joint for a look, the os trigonum (a bone present in 5-15% of people which occurs when one area of bone does not fuse with the rest of the talus during growth) crumbled and had to be removed from her ankle. It looked like ground hamburger meat in the scope pictures they gave us after surgery. While this alleviated a majority of her pain we knew from this point that her ankle would be a continuing issue for the rest of her life. She would always be in pain at some level and would eventually need a full ankle replacement if she turned out to be a good candidate for it down the line. We were told that there was not a good ankle replacement option available at that time.

She never let her ankle stop her from living her childhood and teenage years to their fullest. She cheered on recreational, school, and competition teams from the age of 7 through Middle School, though she did not tumble due to her ankle. She spent three of her high school years in a pivotal roll on the kick-line of her schools Varsity Drill Team after rolling and damaging a tendon in her other ankle in tryouts the first year. She was not going to allow her ankles to stop her from being a part of something that was important to her though she knew it could cost her later down the line.

Two years ago the pain became unbearable. So, we were referred by the Chief of Orthopedics at Cook Children’s Hospital in Fort Worth who had done her second surgery in 2002 to an orthopedic surgeon in Dallas with fellowship training in foot and ankle surgery and degenerative conditions. After multiple visits, scans, x-rays, injections, and an ankle brace, it was determined that the best next step was to fuse the sub-talor joint that seemed to be the cause of the majority of her pain. So, in July of 2014, the fusion was completed. After 9 months of worse pain than she was in prior to surgery, a CT showed that the fusion did not take. She almost cried at the thought of going through another 9 months like the previous nine.

11822351_10205783429038329_7998392307256855477_nWe chose to wait until the end of the school year and scheduled her most recent surgery for June 2015. This time they did a bone graft by taking bony material from below her knee, mixing it with a growth formula and injecting it into two mesh wedges created with a 3-D printer to fit in the place where her deteriorated talus should be. (Fascinating stuff! It almost seems like Science Fiction). they then took a long screw and inserted in from the heel up through her talus to hold everything in place and prayed the bone would grow this time.

God is good! We found out in late November that the bone is indeed growing. The one negative in the last 6 months is that the screw is right below the surface of her skin in the area of her heel where it strikes the ground when she walks. So, it’s causing a significant amount of pain.  This morning at 7:30 am, they are taking out the screw and again we are praying it is going to make a significant difference in her ability to walk with minimal pain. Your prayers in this area are greatly appreciated. Her name is Chailey (pronounced “Kaylee”). She is a strong, beautiful woman of much faith, who has stood firm through many years of pain and suffering with this ankle. She is ready to move on to the next phase of her education and her life without the hindrance that this ankle has been for the past several years. I believe that my God is a healer who can and will give her the miracle that she needs here.

Thank you for taking the time to read my lengthy post and for your prayers. They mean so much.

5 Minutes from the Heart: Beyond

I am just returning from an anniversary trip with my husband for three days and two nights. I had every intention of blogging on the road. However, I ran off without my laptop cord, not to mention my wallet!! So, I tried to blog from my phone Friday morning at breakfast, but my phone kept ringing; one daughter after another checking in and asking for information that only I could provide. I gave up!! So it’s time to try again while the boys are in the bath and the girls are all out getting their nails done or visiting friends.

Start 8:35 PM

Today’s topic is Beyond. The first thing that comes to my mind is the Mercy Me song Word of God Speak which goes like this:

“I’m finding myself at a loss for words
And the funny thing is it’s okay
The last thing I need is to be heard
But to hear what You would say

Word of God speak
Would You pour down like rain
Washing my eyes to see
Your majesty
To be still and know
That You’re in this place
Please let me stay and rest
In Your holiness
Word of God speak

I’m finding myself in the midst of You
Beyond the music, beyond the noise
All that I need is to be with You
And in the quiet hear Your voice”

For me, it’s time to move beyond the music and the noise; beyond the laundry and the dishes; beyond the e-mail and the blog; beyond the dogs and the kids; beyond the job and the bills… and just HEAR HIS VOICE!

8:40 PM Stop!

Check out more thoughts on the word “beyond” with the Gypsy Mama, Lisa-Jo, at the link below.

Five Minutes from the Heart: Story

Linking with the Gypsy Mamma, Lisa-Jo, this morning. Five minutes of writing, straight from the heart. Nothing overly corrected, nothing re-thought.

Today’s topic is story. So, here I go…

8:43 AM Start –

My story begins in 8th grade. I went to a private Christian school where we had a chapel service every Thursday morning. One regular Thursday morning we had a particularly touching speaker. So many students went forward during the alter call it made me wonder if I had ever really accepted Christ as my Lord and Savior. I had always been in church. I believed the Bible.

But was there a time when I actually ASKED Him to be part of my life, to take residence in my heart?

I pondered this though for the next few hours and during lunch I asked my best friend, Lisa, to go with my to the office so I could talk to Mr. Zeller and get this straight.

Mr. Zeller was a wonderfully caring teacher and administrator at our school. He was someone who I felt comfortable having this conversation with in a non-judgemental setting.  He was a very real and loving person. We spoke briefly, then he prayed with me.

I literally felt something lifting off my shoulder as he prayer. It was the most amazing experience of my life. It was the beginning of my story! Do you remember where your story began?

8:48 Stop!

If you question if your story ever began, you can start here with a prayer like this…

“Dear Lord, I admit that I am a sinner.  I have done things that don’t please you.  I have lived my life for myself.  I am sorry and I repent.  I ask you to forgive me.  I believe that you died on the cross for me, to save me.  You did what I could not do for myself.  I come to you now and ask you to take control of my life, I give it to you.   Help me to live every day in a way that pleases you.  I love you, Lord, and I thank you that I will spend all eternity with you. Amen.”

5 Minutes from the Heart: Dance

Five minutes of writing straight from the heart; no corrections, no-rethinking…

Today’s topic is Dance!

Start 7:51 AM

My middle daughter is a typical middle, if there is a typical middle. She’s the shy quiet one like I was. She’s a lot like me in many ways, though she thinks I have no idea what she is going through.

She is my dancer.

It was cheerleading that brought her out of her shell in elementary school and she continued to cheer through Middle School. It seemed to give her a sense of purpose and gave her a reason for being.

In high school she switched from cheer to dance. She joined the drill team and really blossomed more than I ever though she would. She was no longer that shy quiet girl we had always knows.

Unfortunately, drama allowed to run rampant on that team crushed that spirit in her. She quickly retreated back to her shell and has lost all of the confidence that dance initially instilled in her.

I pray every day that she will regain that confidence and know:

what a beautiful dancer she is,

what a talented artist she is,

what a gifted computer guru she is,

what an amazing photographer she is,

what a wonderful daughter she is.

She is my dancer, and I pray every day that she will just dance.

Stop 7: 56 AM

5 Minutes from the Heart: Path

Today’s topic for www.thegypsymama.com ‘s Five Minute Friday writing exercise is “Path”. The exercise is to write for 5 straight minutes without extreme editing; grammer corrections, spell check, etc. This is straight from the heart onto the page in just 5  minutes. So, here I go:

Start 7:11 PM

The path that I am on is lead by the Lord. He directs my path,

Well, as long as I allow Him to. Right?

So often I find myself asking the Lord to lead and direct me, but then I decide that I can’t wait for His response and need to chose a direction for myself before it’s too late to go that direction.

Silly, I know, but I’m sure I am not the only one who does this!

I feel like I am at a crossroads as I posted yesterday, but does the Lord see me at a crossroads? Does his path for me change directions at this point, or is that just my idea od the path I should be on.

It’s funny that this should be the topic today as I ponder this summer, just how to follow His path without making my own way prevail over His.

My Grandmother used to say that you make your own choices, but with His direction. She would say we have our own will, but prayer and study of the Bible will turn the light toward the direction He wants your path to take.

Stop! 7:16 PM

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